After I was diagnosed, I had to go on antidepressants and start therapy. I didn't handle it well at all.You're definitely not alone. Eight years later and I'm doing MUCH better. I still get a little sad when I'm having a rough day, but I have more happy days than sad now. Hang in there.
I think I am starting to understand that even though there is finally a 'reason' I have been sick so very much over the last 9 years and constantly sick the last 12 months this doesn't mean that I will now 'be healthy' the way I was before ever being ill. It is sinking in that I will live a life now of good periods and bad periods...however long those may be and that there is not a lot I can do to control that...no accepting that part of it at all...I want to be the healthy person I was, the healthy wife, healthy mom, healthy marathon runner, healty friend, normal human without this stupid thing...guess I am just now understanding that there is no 'cure' for CD and that life will not ever go back exactly the way it was.
I am thankful for the diagnosis and that there is treatment and thankful that the nine years is coming to a close with an answer, I just am struggling with the answer/diagnosis...guess I thought that one day a Dr. would finally say "OK, we finally found what has kept you sick so long, here is a script, take these twice a day for 10 days and you will be well" It's just hard to accept that there is no longer a 'well' in the complete sense for me ever again....
Oh, and I'm really sorry for the issues on the other thread about what CD is...I was just trying to show support by "thanking" you for your posts...I don't like when people are unkind or disrespectful in communications...I didn't mean to cause further conflict