I unfortunately fell downhill on the path of addictions since I was about 12, signs of an addictive personality I can now sense much better and can say I had it in me since I was 5 or 6.
For me it started with scratch cards loto tickets and moved onto the devils of all devils of gambling Casinos! Things have just gotten worse as timed passed. I have been successful in mostly everything I did in life. From jobs in early teens to becoming an entrepreneur and have been successful in all my businesses. Crohn's though also had a toll on this as many other traumas in my life. The more I've earned the more I've lost. Anyhow back to alcohol, my addictions have ranged from gambling to spending, to being an addictive workaholic no drugs, besides prescription pills for my depression. I've never seen alcohol coming. After I've lost everything and I mean everything, including self respect, friends and relationships, partners, house, money, business, long term relationships, I started drinking heavily.
I am still drinking almost on a daily basis, unless I do not have money. It's been 2 years since I cannot recover from all the trauma and I keep drinking. I have always changed one addiction for the other, now I am left with drinking and smoking. Terrible. I am researching often on different aids to quit drinking all together, but the way I really see it is just willpower. Change the addiction for something that brings good. Alcohol destroys lives. I am a 5 Liters of beer a day drinker or 1-2 bottles of liquor. I have to admit liquor has some benefits for me but only when drinking with moderation and it doesn't work every time, as Crohn's is an unpredictable disease, one day something might make you feel well, the same thing will make you feel worse another time. I wanted to point out that it can take a very nasty path, we are told we are not allowed to drink, of course a doctor will say that to his/her patient, but with moderation it might work for some in their benefit. All the surgeons that have performed surgeries on me here are alcoholics, as I fact.
Nothing feels better than freedom, I miss those days, I've had long periods of time when I did not gamble, did not spend, did not smoke much and felt great.
Say no to alcohol, one drink today and might end up like me. I see alcohol as the worst addiction a person suffering from any digestive problem can have. Moderation is indeed the key, and even if with moderation it makes you feel bad then surely it is not for you. I will quit altogether and probably enjoy a 50 ml of liquor on holidays, bday etc.
One thing I am considering a miracle about my 2 years binge drinking spree, not even seeing a doctor in these years is how on earth have I survived? I did not feel bad for long periods of time, but now it is starting to change. I constantly feel bad.
Thank you for reading