I'm sooo happy to have found this site. Everyone I know seems to know someone in their lifetime who has had Crohn's Disease or Ulcerative Colitis and I've heard every simple cure imaginable. The problem is none of them have worked for me. I've come to the point that I don't even tell people what my illness is because I'm just tired of hearing it. :yrolleyes:. I have colitis, the tests will not show if it's Crohn's Disease or Ulcerative colitis. I have been on meds for over 5 months and if anything I feel even worse. Yesterday I was given a choice of surgery or Remicade infusion. When reading the side effects of Remicade I am terrified. I don't want to add more complication to my health. I am in constant pain, depression has set in big time. I cry like a baby and life has no meaning other than trying just to cope each day. I don't know what to do !!! If I have surgery I will need a total illostomy, permanent due to where my disease is located in different sections of my colon. :sign0085: