- Location
- auckland NewZealand
Hi My name is Karl im a crohns sufferer of 24 years; but to be honest; given my health history; probably 48 yrs; or since i was an infant. One thing I must impress upon our members is to at least listen to you;re dr. For myself I absolutely didnt know(was not informed ) of the potential out come of avoiding medication. I have found out the hard way; my prognosis is poor. Although I started medication probably 5-6 years after diagnosis; I suspect it had taken its toll rather sneekily and messed up my mind and emotions(just as something had when I was a child ....Crohns???) Anyway i really didnt realise how bad things had become untill i entered into a relationship and found some of the stresses of this sent me off the deep end(and into suicide mode ...just as had happened to me as a child!) do you see a pattern emmerging? Anyway to cut along story short the suicide mode. reared its ugly head numerous times. To much detriment to myself; I now suffer extensive brain injury; and an absolutely terrible existence to the point that I wish my suicide attempts had not been thwarted. I also live in a lot of pain and discomfort from the crohns; arthritis; painful eyes;etc..etc..etc..etc... To be honest my life is near to being over; It is an extremely miserable way to go; I believe the suicide attempts alowed the crohns to get an extra foot hold and it seems to be every wherefrom anus to mouth. I obviously need some sort of miracle; or as peaceful a death as possible( which I am researching at present) Truth be told i would LOVE to have my health back; it just seems like a mighty distance to travel; and my life has fallen to bits. I would like to research some other therapies; but every day I wake up I am reminded of the dilema im in Best to all members Karl