Im newly diagnosed and flaring, which is a double whammy. Im depressed i know becuase i feel like im worthless and sick all the time and not the partner, person or parent i want and need to be and working to get that dealt with. Im also on prednisone which i know from previous experience (Im also asthmatic) makes me suspicious, angry, volatile and downright mean at times.
I keep saying things that hurt my partner. even i later am like man why did i go there? and now hes hurting, feeling like im always belittling or criticizing him, which to be fair might be true right now but i dont mean to. I dont mean it. I just.... my thoughts are so dark right now and hes unfairly getting the worst of it.
How can i explain this to him, while apologizing, and help him see that it isnt him, i dont mean to and am working on it, without sounding like im making excuses?
I keep saying things that hurt my partner. even i later am like man why did i go there? and now hes hurting, feeling like im always belittling or criticizing him, which to be fair might be true right now but i dont mean to. I dont mean it. I just.... my thoughts are so dark right now and hes unfairly getting the worst of it.
How can i explain this to him, while apologizing, and help him see that it isnt him, i dont mean to and am working on it, without sounding like im making excuses?