I am a 23 year old girl, who used to be fun, bubbly and the life of the party. My world seems to have crashed and I have been diagnosed as 99.9% Chrones Dieseased. I feel lost and confused however relived I finally have some kind of diagnosis after 2 years of secerts and 3 months of absolute hell.
The last 2 years i have suffered from bouts of diarehah that i have always hidden and considered "normal" for me. It wasnt untill i disscussed it a year a ago with a family member and found out maybe its not so normal, i was brave enough to finally book a doctors appoitnment to ask some questions however got side tracked with something else (making excuses not to talk about it and carried on suffering).
For about 6 months now I begain having abodminal discomfort and pain after eating, again stubborn old me i refused to see a doctor. My mood changed I began to feel depressed, lathergic, and not wanting to see anyone or go out. (wait a minute i am the girl that arranges the night out whats happening to me)
Around the 1st august this excelarated into a contstant burning stabbing pain. I have never felt so low and down in all my life, the pain drained the life out of me. I cant stand doctors or hospitals and refused to go. I eneded up booking a doctors appointment again finally and had blood tests taken, and came back saying i was positive for Helicropractor Germ, it is a germ that causes abdominal pain. I was put on a course of antibiotics and asked to come back in 2 weeks for more bloods. I lost alot of weight very quickly and even though the course eased the pain, i still was very very low and very very tired. I was told it was looking like stomach ulcers or IBS and sent for an endascopy.
The endscopy consultant spoke to me before the procedure and sad i should be having it the other end from the sounds of my syptoms. I had the endscopy anyway , which all i remember is gagging, and a few days afer I received a letter with my appointment for my colonscopy which was last friday.
Last friday is possibly one of the worst states i have ever been in, before, during and after. i have never in my life felt pain like it. simples. That colonoscopy hurt like i have never felt pain before. (and i thought my stomache pain was the worst i have ever felt) i was moved around and just remember crying throughout the whole thing. (respect to the nurses and consultants as they were very caring towards me) After i was taken out 15 minutes later i had a lady standing at my bed telling me its Chrones. I had never even heard of it.
i was prescribed 2x 500mg Pentasa - whats that? 1x Adcal -D3 - Whats that? 40mg Prednisolone all this in one day? for 7 weeks.
I have another consultantion on the 6th December I recieved my letter today. maybe to explain a bit more of what to expect. This forum has explained alot more to me and been a great support to find many like minded people.
The things that scare me are...
- Will i ever get my personality back i want to be the old happy me i was a year ago.
-i dont want to feel depressed anymore
- The thought of ever having a colonscopy again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont think i can. honestly this is proberly the main thing.
- I cant just rest. How do you all deal with work commitments?
- will i always feel this confused?
Thanks for reading if you have. If it doesnt make to much sense im sorry i jsut dont know how to get down my words and feelings. and also i am not to up to date with Chrones Jargon yet!!
:confused2:
I have so many questions..................
The last 2 years i have suffered from bouts of diarehah that i have always hidden and considered "normal" for me. It wasnt untill i disscussed it a year a ago with a family member and found out maybe its not so normal, i was brave enough to finally book a doctors appoitnment to ask some questions however got side tracked with something else (making excuses not to talk about it and carried on suffering).
For about 6 months now I begain having abodminal discomfort and pain after eating, again stubborn old me i refused to see a doctor. My mood changed I began to feel depressed, lathergic, and not wanting to see anyone or go out. (wait a minute i am the girl that arranges the night out whats happening to me)
Around the 1st august this excelarated into a contstant burning stabbing pain. I have never felt so low and down in all my life, the pain drained the life out of me. I cant stand doctors or hospitals and refused to go. I eneded up booking a doctors appointment again finally and had blood tests taken, and came back saying i was positive for Helicropractor Germ, it is a germ that causes abdominal pain. I was put on a course of antibiotics and asked to come back in 2 weeks for more bloods. I lost alot of weight very quickly and even though the course eased the pain, i still was very very low and very very tired. I was told it was looking like stomach ulcers or IBS and sent for an endascopy.
The endscopy consultant spoke to me before the procedure and sad i should be having it the other end from the sounds of my syptoms. I had the endscopy anyway , which all i remember is gagging, and a few days afer I received a letter with my appointment for my colonscopy which was last friday.
Last friday is possibly one of the worst states i have ever been in, before, during and after. i have never in my life felt pain like it. simples. That colonoscopy hurt like i have never felt pain before. (and i thought my stomache pain was the worst i have ever felt) i was moved around and just remember crying throughout the whole thing. (respect to the nurses and consultants as they were very caring towards me) After i was taken out 15 minutes later i had a lady standing at my bed telling me its Chrones. I had never even heard of it.
i was prescribed 2x 500mg Pentasa - whats that? 1x Adcal -D3 - Whats that? 40mg Prednisolone all this in one day? for 7 weeks.
I have another consultantion on the 6th December I recieved my letter today. maybe to explain a bit more of what to expect. This forum has explained alot more to me and been a great support to find many like minded people.
The things that scare me are...
- Will i ever get my personality back i want to be the old happy me i was a year ago.
-i dont want to feel depressed anymore
- The thought of ever having a colonscopy again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont think i can. honestly this is proberly the main thing.
- I cant just rest. How do you all deal with work commitments?
- will i always feel this confused?
Thanks for reading if you have. If it doesnt make to much sense im sorry i jsut dont know how to get down my words and feelings. and also i am not to up to date with Chrones Jargon yet!!
:confused2:
I have so many questions..................