I really hope no one has gone through this, I don't wish this even to my worst enemies.
I have crohn's ans PCOS so getting pregnant is already hard for me. Last year I got pregnant with the help of medication (clomid). Unfortunately my son had a lot of birth defects. There was no change of survival for him. I gave birth to him and he was so beautiful in my opinion.. I really mis him a lot. By now there should be a little baby in the house.. It hurts so much..
The hospital is doing a DNA test to see what was wrong with him and more important what the chances are it happens again (I really can't take this again!). Unfortunately they have a hard time with the material they took from him so there is a really big chance we will never know. They said we can try again because they don't think the chance of it happening again is very big. Now I am on my second cycle with clomid. But now I am having this flare and I am so sick its really really bad! I cant get pregnant in this condition!
I am so afraid I will never have a baby because of all of this together.. I could cry all day. I hope maybe there is someone here to talk with. I don't want to be the person who can only talk about the baby she lost. Most irl people lose interest, they don't ask so I don't want to bring it up all the time. But I do want to talk to someone.
Next week I will have another colonoscopy, I hope they can give me better medication after that so I will feel better. When I feel better I can maybe try to have a baby again. I feel so sorry for my boyfriend. He has seen me sick so many times and took care of me but now he also lost his son and now me and my stupid disease make it harder to go on. Sometimes I'm afraid he will leave me. I don't think he will after all we went through but I think I would understand, I'm holding him back...
I'm so depressed and in so much pain..
I have crohn's ans PCOS so getting pregnant is already hard for me. Last year I got pregnant with the help of medication (clomid). Unfortunately my son had a lot of birth defects. There was no change of survival for him. I gave birth to him and he was so beautiful in my opinion.. I really mis him a lot. By now there should be a little baby in the house.. It hurts so much..
The hospital is doing a DNA test to see what was wrong with him and more important what the chances are it happens again (I really can't take this again!). Unfortunately they have a hard time with the material they took from him so there is a really big chance we will never know. They said we can try again because they don't think the chance of it happening again is very big. Now I am on my second cycle with clomid. But now I am having this flare and I am so sick its really really bad! I cant get pregnant in this condition!
I am so afraid I will never have a baby because of all of this together.. I could cry all day. I hope maybe there is someone here to talk with. I don't want to be the person who can only talk about the baby she lost. Most irl people lose interest, they don't ask so I don't want to bring it up all the time. But I do want to talk to someone.
Next week I will have another colonoscopy, I hope they can give me better medication after that so I will feel better. When I feel better I can maybe try to have a baby again. I feel so sorry for my boyfriend. He has seen me sick so many times and took care of me but now he also lost his son and now me and my stupid disease make it harder to go on. Sometimes I'm afraid he will leave me. I don't think he will after all we went through but I think I would understand, I'm holding him back...
I'm so depressed and in so much pain..