I guess today is just an off day for me. The road to diagnosis was fortunately pretty quick for me. I guess I just have been really stressed with so much crap so quick. A year ago I was a seemingly healthy new mother. I had just been proposed to by the guy I loved more than anything. Things seemed perfect..
Now he is gone. By my choice, yet I can't stop missing him. He doesn't do enough for me or our daughter and he has had a ridiculous amount I chances. He copped out when I needed him most. Through this. I have been diagnosed with Crohns. I had my gall bladder taken out on 1.13. I have a peri-anal
Abscess with a fistula wrapped around the spinkter muscle. I had a seton placed on 2.14. I visited the doctor for post op check up yesterday. He says I will probably be put under again soon so he can turn it to get a better angle to my very complex fistula. He also said he thinks I may have cervical cancer or at least the starting stages of it. He is the 2nd doc to mention this. He said see a gyno before the end of the year. I see my GI for the first time since my colonoscopy and diagnosis tomorrow. I have to tell him that tapering off Prednisone is making me feel crappy again.
I feel like I am doing everything alone. I have a great family and support system but it seems no one wants to hear anymore. I've just turned 21 on the 13th of this month. I never thought I would be dealing with this kind of stuff so soon. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I need to get back to work again to distract myself. Laying alone in this house isn't helping. I just can't atop thinking about all of it and my dumb ass can't stop missing him. What's wrong with me?
I truly believe God only puts us through what he knows we can handle but I'm starting to wonder how much more I can handle. Thi year has only begun and I'm countin down until next.
One day at a time. One day at a time.
Now he is gone. By my choice, yet I can't stop missing him. He doesn't do enough for me or our daughter and he has had a ridiculous amount I chances. He copped out when I needed him most. Through this. I have been diagnosed with Crohns. I had my gall bladder taken out on 1.13. I have a peri-anal
Abscess with a fistula wrapped around the spinkter muscle. I had a seton placed on 2.14. I visited the doctor for post op check up yesterday. He says I will probably be put under again soon so he can turn it to get a better angle to my very complex fistula. He also said he thinks I may have cervical cancer or at least the starting stages of it. He is the 2nd doc to mention this. He said see a gyno before the end of the year. I see my GI for the first time since my colonoscopy and diagnosis tomorrow. I have to tell him that tapering off Prednisone is making me feel crappy again.
I feel like I am doing everything alone. I have a great family and support system but it seems no one wants to hear anymore. I've just turned 21 on the 13th of this month. I never thought I would be dealing with this kind of stuff so soon. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I need to get back to work again to distract myself. Laying alone in this house isn't helping. I just can't atop thinking about all of it and my dumb ass can't stop missing him. What's wrong with me?
I truly believe God only puts us through what he knows we can handle but I'm starting to wonder how much more I can handle. Thi year has only begun and I'm countin down until next.
One day at a time. One day at a time.