Im feeling beyond alone right now and I'm generally not coping at all!
Im fed up of being so miserable and its annoying me that I am having to write on here as all I seem to do recently is moan or complain about something!
I hate that fact all I can think about or seem to talk about is having this disease and its ruling my life.
Everyday I go to bed thinking that tomorrow I can start again, thinking I will be more positive and more motivated! But surprise surprise, by the morning nothing has changed and I'm still my miserable self with no one to talk to but my parents who must be getting bored of me by now!
I cant seem to get off the steroids and am now on steroid suppositories as well which has been mentally traumatic for me this week after another rather disappointing consultants appointment!
I tend to just feel either tired or angry or tearful these days and cant seem to snap out of it or even find things that make me happy. However sometimes I feel that I don't want to be happy and have even started avoiding watching funny program's just so I'm not laughing!
This all sounds so pathetic and even writing it makes me annoyed at myself for being this way! I am really wanting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and I keep reminding myself that I will get through this but right now I just cant see anything good!
Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent my frustration somewhere!
Im fed up of being so miserable and its annoying me that I am having to write on here as all I seem to do recently is moan or complain about something!
I hate that fact all I can think about or seem to talk about is having this disease and its ruling my life.
Everyday I go to bed thinking that tomorrow I can start again, thinking I will be more positive and more motivated! But surprise surprise, by the morning nothing has changed and I'm still my miserable self with no one to talk to but my parents who must be getting bored of me by now!
I cant seem to get off the steroids and am now on steroid suppositories as well which has been mentally traumatic for me this week after another rather disappointing consultants appointment!
I tend to just feel either tired or angry or tearful these days and cant seem to snap out of it or even find things that make me happy. However sometimes I feel that I don't want to be happy and have even started avoiding watching funny program's just so I'm not laughing!
This all sounds so pathetic and even writing it makes me annoyed at myself for being this way! I am really wanting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and I keep reminding myself that I will get through this but right now I just cant see anything good!
Sorry for the rant, just needed to vent my frustration somewhere!