I'm a 33 year old male. I was just recently diagnosed with Crohns Disease after a stay in the hospital where docs informed me I almost has an encounter of the 1st kind with the Pearly Gates. When I say diagnosed I should note that I have not yet had colonoscopy but Crohns is what doctors strongly believe I have as do I after much research and thought. It explains so much. Anyway I believe I have been experiencing Crohns affects for many years. Over the past year and half things have gotten progressively worse. I am always exhausted and feel plain miserable. It got to the point that I quit my job. I was so tired and depressed all the time that I quit caring about much of anything.in search of answers I was put on many depression meds which none of which worked. Also diagnosed with high bp and finially told I had severe sleep apnea and that it was the cause of my issues. Since I've always had stomach pain since I can remember and since I had been tested for everything in the world I never put exhaustion and stomach pain 2gether as signs of something else. Things have gotten terrible in the last few mths as my depression is as bad as it gets. I wake up and immediately think of killing myself. Thankfully, I suppose the love for my children prevent me from following through. This disease has affected my ability to play with them the way I used to but I refuse to let it rob them of a father altogether. I digress... My depression is made much worse as most of my family r constantly telling me its in NY head and to just snap out of it. Calling me a deadbeat and lazy and poor provider for my family has sent me into dispair. I've always worked hard for my family. Always been able to fight through sickness but this is different. Was told by my wife I should have rested in the hospital and that I needed to help her clean 1 day after discharge. Its been a week and a half and I find myself much better but still very sore, weak and in a deep depression.I've never been part of a support group. Truth b told I'm the 1 most come to for council but I'm absolutely at the end of my rope. There's no 1 that will even discuss it with me. They all just want me to keep quiet about my condition and for me to do all the things the way I did before.To b me again before I became a deadbeat. I've heard that it's in my head so many times I question myself constantly even after hospital visit. I kno deep down that its not in my head and that I am sick but it's definitely not helping my state of mind to hear those closest 2 me say it is. I need hope. Just a flicker of a light at the end of the tunnel. Something has 2 give.